hello everyone, I am Auset and im a single mother, I have a four month old beautiful bouncing baby boy! which i am so greatful for and i thank god for blessing me with such joy..being a mommy is a new experience for me and i love it to the core besides the restless nights and yes i breastfeed only!! but id like to tell you in short my story what ive been going though for the past couple of months while pregnant up untill now and the reason y im on this site today....it was 2008 wen i met my childs father i was on my way home from work wen i was walking out of the subway station he was leaving out of a building beside the station wen we locked eyes it was at the time i can honestly say like magic.He could not look away from each others gaze the connection between us to see the thing is im am from haitian desent and he is south african but he is white and he is of the jewish faith he is not the ones with the black top hat and curls at the sides he is regular dressed person like everyone eles but yeah we where in an exslusive relationship i got along every well with his family we ate together hang out as a big family he met my family they also imbraced him when my mom and dad and whole intire family died in haiti from the earthquake he went with me to help put to rest my family he was with me...things we always great between us he always seemed so content with us together but in early 2011 i found out i was pregnant i thought he would he thrilled as i was but instead i got a big surprize he broke up with me on valentines day i was mortifid and so hurt and frankly in utter shock he left me two months pregnant told me he didnt want a baby and he since i was going to keep the baby then he didnt want me either i choose my son and he choose to leave and his family also pulled away i went into a deep depression for a few months i couldnt think i couldnt funtion i was working a great job at the time and had to leave because of all the stress i was going though although i was regaining myself i found out that i had a 9 year old sister who did indeed survive and was dying from cancer i had to send money for her care she was good for a while but then died on the day i went into labor with my son i was alone i had no one by my side it was such a hard emotional experience for me both good and painful because i gained a son and lost the only sibling i had left wen i went back home the land lord gave me two months after my son was born to move out because i kept being short on rent and i had three months of missed rent and that was because i had to use the money i worked hard for to buy my son all the things he needed i didnt have a baby shower because i felt like that was something special to celabrate with family and mine are gone and i only have a less than a hand full of friends and only two of the still lives in the ny the other two are away in school so since ive had my son ive lost my place ive sold my car growing up i came from an ok family my dad created blue prints for buildings and my mother was a doctor back home so we always had money and i never had to ask for anything we always had more than enough and wen we came to america we lived in central park west we had a doorman and maids so u can only imagin the life i lived with my wonderful family what i loved most about my family is that we always gave back to our country we always helped people how where in need my dad put so many children though college me and my mom ran for beast cancer walk aids walk every year for five yrs we her and i we where in the colltion to save dafur and other organizations we always did toy drives for kids for the holidays and we always went to church im from a catholic family talking about my family now brings trears to my eyes like right now im staying with a girlfriend and her husband they do there best but they are exspecting and he is in the army so she is going to be moving with him im sad there leaving in just a few months im very sad but im so thank full and really as well i just want my own environment for me and my son im a bit uncomfortable because im used to having but i cant because im running low on whatever i have and all my cerdit cards are maxed ive tried to reach out to his family but there no where to be found i went to his parents home only to find out that they moved i tried contacting him for the last time since he has never seen his son he only to me he if i go for child support he will take my son away just to be vengful not because he care (his words) idk wat eles to do its hard to go out and look for work wen u have a needy newborn who needs u and constantly cries wen he sense that im out so i stay with him and look though the enternet for ways to make income but its not easy i just really need help if someone out there can help me some how in ANY way PLEASE help me i stuggling and im doing my best ive never been on sites like this one but if it really beings help to ppl like me then here i am here is my story im not a drug addict i dont drink or smoke i have no criminal record im in need please if you can help me contact me THANK YOU
